Welcome To Wherever You Are

By Sean Keenan

As a child I remember there being buildings under construction next to the Jubilee Oval not far from where I lived. My father explained to me that the occupants who lived there were themselves builders which left me flabbergasted. Logic in my child-mind went a little as follows: Builders can build, they don't have to pay for their work, ergo, they should have the fastest completed homes. (Ok so maybe I didn't think the word ergo back then)

After being pointed out that builders don't want to work 24/7 (plus a slew of other reasons such as enough time in a day, that they don't get paid to build their homes etc), I subconsciously began to seek out the truth throughout the rest of my life with a little help from deep thought and it's partner in crime, logic. But the world is incredibly complex. There are human emotions. Stubbornness, Idiocy. To seek deep rooted truth one is required to leave ones ego firmly at the door and embrace the looming storm. As a kid I realise now how much of a scientist I was. Thought experiments, numbers, the nature of people. I don't think I ever mastered the latter concept, but a lot of  thoughts I had then wound up being deep theological ideas on the internet I would later find out many years later. Thought experiments like when an unstoppable force hits an immovable object or the if-everyone-else-is-doing-it-why-do-I-have-to? (a personal favourite of mine) I realise where I come from now. I have been naive and stubborn for many years, trapped by my own emotions and thought patterns. To quote the X Files, the truth is out there. I feel this building awareness of my own existence that got lost in lifes bullshit and rules.

February 28 marked a turning point. Its almost like the 4th dimensional me reached out from his world and touched me with a form of knowledge awareness. I felt awkward that day. The excitement of the possibilities, the fear of the unknown. I took the leap of faith, landed in mud, slowly trudging my way towards the oasis. Im now better positioned now than I was on that final day of February. I had to go through the experience of it though, there is no other way. The qualia of the highs and melancholic lows. To be honest, this is a premature assessment, this is an ongoing story in it's early chapters - but in these embryonic stages I can see the structure taking form. If the last few months marked the drawing of blueprints, then the current climate is hinting at signs of a fetus.  The Galaxies are settling. Watch this space.